This isn't just a "wagon" anymore.....

Since the last time I have updated, I have lost 20 pounds and have been (if I do say so) kicking butt at the gym! I go at least three days a week and that has been since I started there on March 17. I wanted to work up to being able to do the Couch to 5K program which I wasn't able to do cause - as I had ALWAYS said "I don't DO running".... so I figured I ought to be able to run for a minute and then work up to phase one. This website shows more info for each phase. On April 3, I ran my first minute and felt like Rocky! Since then, I have done one minute runs up to four times. Yesterday, I fell at work and my ankle completely folded in half and I was so scared because I was going to start the actual program today. I iced it and put it up and it was good to go today. I went to the gym and did the first step for week one. I felt amazing!!! I got sideswiped by three dogs today at the dogpark and fell and hurt my ankle again! I think it's not so great this time, and I am so bummed that I can't do the workout again tomorrow.... I will take it easy, but I am still going to the gym... This is how I know it's not just a fad with me anymore. I look foreward to going to the gym now and that is a huge change from what used to be! I go to World Gym if anyone is looking for a workout partner!! I will post a pic soon. I am at my lowest today!! YAY!

Getting a grip!

I can't believe it's March 17 and I haven't written in four - FOUR months! Um... okay so maybe I do believe it..... I have been avoiding it...... I decided that this blog is for all of those who want to know about this journey, the good, the bad AND the ugly! This past year has been one in which I have learned more about myself than ever before, but it wasn't the most fun and beautiful thing in the world. Remember my post in November? It's not like you have to dig much to find it.... it's two before this one. I said I was learning a lot and was having a hard time.... It started right around then and I am finally coming out of it now! In talking to people it seems apparent that I am a trite and true sufferer of Seasonal Affective Disorder. I would have thought I may have had it to a very small degree, but not so. That in combination with the fact that my Vitamin D levels were also low poses a one-two punch for my attitude! Spring is coming so that is helping my attitude a little, but I have also started taking Vitamin D3 daily to help with my mood. Mood? Check.
I know that when I work, I get a lot of excercise (walk upwards of 5 miles in a shift and burn about 700-800 calories) but what about when I don't work? I can take Fenway for a walk but since my base level is so high from what I get at work I need more than a neighborhood walk. I joined World Gym this week and love it so much! I am getting the real workout that I need. I can still take Fen for a walk and to the Dog park but that is just extra and on top of what I am already getting and I like it that way! Excercise? Check!
Here's the best part! And, it's two fold! I have started taking Concerta for my ADD that was needing some serious attention (pun intended!) and am noticing a REAL difference! Not only does it help with attention and remembering daily tasks, but it is helpful with focusing, it curbs my appetite, and helps send that voice of reason when it is needed to curb those impulses I so frequently have. The Impulsive buys, the impulsive eats...etc.... Part deux is that I am finally seeing a therapist! She is wonderful and we get along so well! She knows just what to add and I don't hold a thing back with her! She is helping me to be the best person I can possibly be! Mind? Check!
I had slowly been gaining weight starting right after I posted the before and after pictures and had gained a total of 15 lbs. I have lost 10 of those in the last two weeks. I am feeling motivated and good and that makes me keep feeling motivated! I know that right now things are good and I will hit a hurdle again at one point or another, but I will be better equipped to handle these hurdles as they come at me! To those of you who support me, thank you a million times! I can't tell you what it means to me knowing you are out there!